peace can be used to describe a state of tranquility, or can also be used interjectionally as a request, greeting or farewell.

I'm enjoying being home. It's nice to see everyone, plus i've met a couple interesting people since being back.

While the few remaining, 'decent' get downtrodden; the "lucky" majority laugh, scream and throw loose change.

my room at my parents house looks less like a hotel room and more like my room now, i'm getting there.
Things were a bit messed up when i first returned, but i think it's settling down.
I miss Ashford, but i am really glad to be back.

"If he has a conscience he will suffer for his mistake. That will be punishment-as well as the prison."
Fyodor Dostoevsky., Crime and Punishment.

"I believe that on the first night I went to Gatsby's house I was one of the few guests who had actually been invited..."

"...People were not invited--they went there"

Have you ever thought that sometimes, you try to be too much to too many? i feel i may be guilty of this.
This week has defiantely helped me appreciate that it isn't hard at all to sit back and appreciate people for who they are.
We all look for the good in people; and you don't always have to try so hard to convey that you are a good person.
The right people appreciate this fact, and as they realise that you are an honest person, you also realise the same about them.
It's just nice to meet such a collection of decent people.

random note - but you realise when you go to anywhere new, you have to explore that area for yourself.
However if you are inducted to that area with someone you entirely trust, you already have an insight as to what to expect.
This helps overcome inhibitions, and gives a feeling of almost entire safety.
I can't explain how amazing this is, or how grateful i am for being able to experience only the best of times possible.
I have only experienced amazing things for the last week, and i cannot recall the last time i spent a whole week enjoying myself; not having to worry about anything negative or derogatory.

For this i am grateful, endlessly and always.
I have had the most amazing mini-holiday, relaxed, enjoyed myself, met some amazing people and had fun.
All i can do is thank and commend the people i have met in this circumstance, for they have really tried to help me have the best of times, and done a fucking good job.

I cannot think how to explain it, but the people i've met and the time i've spent with them, have reassured me as to alot of things. I don't want to go into great detail, (this one's just for me) but as well as being amazing; i believe this 'holiday' has been of great benifit to me, my personality, and my friendships.
I can't express how much i have enjoyed myself and how beneficial it has been, and again how grateful i am.

So all i have to say is thank you.

"From this day to the ending of the world, we in it shall be remembered.
we few, we happy few, we band of brothers;
for he today that sheds his blood with me shall be my brother; be he never so vile.
This day shall gentle his condition; and gentlemen in England now a-bed, shall think themselves accursed they were not here, and hold their manhoods cheap while any speaks, that fought with us today."

Took some liberties, but it's a Shakespeare quote.

Peace. x

So i guess my one a day became ten, or twelve or more.

It's always amazing to live for the moment, and i honestly believe people do know how to do this properly these days.
However from a personal standpoint, for most of my adult life i have been living for the moment. I think sometimes you need to step back and take a look at the bigger picture, even if it is purely for the reason that it will bring greater moments to enjoy.

I find i float through life more often than not. If there's something i don't particularly gain much from my life, i ignore it and revert to enjoying whats going on here and now, and what enjoyment i can subsequently seek from it.

throughout this week i have thoroughly enjoyed myself and realistically achieved nothing.
This has been almost a holiday to me, and to be fair i believe it's well needed.
There's no way i can explain how much i have lived for the moment, and forgot the rest of life and just had an amazing time (many thanks to the people of Ashford for helping me to accomplish this.)

However strange as it may seem, i have found myself thinking (in my spare time) about plans for the future, and not just short term plans either.
For once i haven't found this to be a chore, maybe it's the challenge i actually need.
I don't anticipate big changes to my life at all, like i say i'm pretty content at present and definitely looking forward to summer; as the start of it has been amazing.
So yeah, i'm not even making serious plans, but for change i'm enjoying looking forward, and thinking of the future.

I appreciate this has little relevance yet again, i really should write about what i've been up to since the end of uni. But that's for another time when i'm not busy having so much fun.
I will update, write and reflect when i get a moment, but i imagine that will only be when i get home and settled.
So this is all i got for now, but here's to the future.

"A companion's words of persuasion are effective"
Homer, The Iliad

Love, Peace and Mohawk Grease.

I don't have a great deal to write about today really.
I finished uni for summer this week, and i'm finished at truro college for good. Shame really, i was just starting to enjoy the place.
I've passed everything so far except 2 modules i'm waiting to get my mark back for, so fingers crossed!
first time i've finished anything for along time.
Still really looking forward to Plymouth next year.
The weather is good and my hangover forgiving, so today could be good!
I got a dissertation to write before the end of summer, but that's going to be this weeks task i think, try get it done and out the way.
This blog's shit, it's not interesting in the slightest so i'm going to leave it alone and go and draw something.
or maybe eat something.
or i could draw something then eat it?
hmm. endless possibilities.

"There's a fine line between genius and insanity; that is only measurable by success."

if you gonna be dumb, you gotta be tough.

excuse me, can you tell me if i'm in the right place?

... anybody?

"You make that dance look so new, and i'm in awe...

...a face like you've never seen; I'm yours tonight.
So come on, light the stage.
We can all take off, anywhere.
we'll never come back... ever"

This week has been good. I should have been revising; however i've been getting mashed and having fun with my friends.
I've come to the conclusion wasting time when you have nothing to do, is boring. However given that i have concluded that wasting time when you have other things you really should be doing; is actually lots and lots of fun.

The weather has been good, and even though i'm still broke and running on fumes, my friends have enabled me to have a wicked time.
Just because something doesn't benifit the academic side of your life, it often is still needed.
It's important to spend as much time playing with the other aspects of life, not just careers and education.

So all in all i've had a pretty good week off, but i think it may be time to hit the books and get some much needed revision done now that i have a clearer head and a much more positive mental attitude.

From sunday to thursday i didn't sleep at all, it was pretty crazy - i got past the 70 hour mark and things got wierd. funny though. but thats all fixed and my sleeping pattern was beautiful for 2 nights. fingers crossed it'll stay. =)
i'm going to find a nice quote and a nice picture to wrap this up with.



"Man is fond of counting his troubles, but he does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought to, he would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it." - Fyodor Dostoyevsky


... See wasn't that nice.

Peace. x