If i think, i think of you.

I'm getting there; stuff ain't easy but i'm coming around.
it still hurts to think about it, but i'm finding that i'm spending less n less time doing so.

I got a message from someone i haven't heard from in a long time; part of my life i'd pretty much forgotten. Anyways, this person was close friends with one of my good friends who unfortunately died a couple of years ago. They had no idea what had happened; and that's so sad. I said I'd take the time out to met them and help them catch up on what they've missed.
That'll be fun i imagine(!) =|
















I'm enjoying Plymouth still, and I'm really enjoying spending time by myself here as well, something which until recently has been tearing me up.
It just feels like there's always something going on here, even at the quietest of times. It's just down to me to find what appeals to me. =)

Lots of work to do so i better get to it i suppose! still not really sure what i'm doing studying for a Law degree.
Peace.

I miss you.

I miss you alot.
today has been horrible. i got very little sleep, and the best part of my day was when i woke up but couldn't remember yesterday. for a few seconds everything was still perfect.
today has been random. very random. i can't really apply myself to a great deal, but i'm keeping busy. i've been into uni but i can't hold a pen so i've just sat n half listened to whatever's going on.
i still feel lost.
...and i still haven't ever watched a disney movie.

"we all have something that digs at us, at least we dig each other."

For all we could have done, and all that could have been.

That's it. game over.
Alex Garland said in 'the beach' something about that moment just before game over, when you realise you're totally fucked; but it's far too late to do anything about it.
It's such a bitter moment, however part of you wants to draw it out forever, you don't want to see what happens after it's all over and you'll do anything to hold onto that moment for a few seconds longer.
So today i have lost alot, someone very important to me.
I love you, and i'm scared of going back to normal; i don't want to forget and move on. I'm going to miss you so much.
I'm sorry.

Here's to everything we still had left to do, and dreaming of what an experience it would have been.

...i hate all this past tense shit.