For all we could have done, and all that could have been.

That's it. game over.
Alex Garland said in 'the beach' something about that moment just before game over, when you realise you're totally fucked; but it's far too late to do anything about it.
It's such a bitter moment, however part of you wants to draw it out forever, you don't want to see what happens after it's all over and you'll do anything to hold onto that moment for a few seconds longer.
So today i have lost alot, someone very important to me.
I love you, and i'm scared of going back to normal; i don't want to forget and move on. I'm going to miss you so much.
I'm sorry.

Here's to everything we still had left to do, and dreaming of what an experience it would have been.

...i hate all this past tense shit.