Ode to my brother.

I can't begin to explain how good a friend you are to me.
if i live to a hundred i doubt i could repay the favours you've done for me.
you probably don't realise the amount of stuff you do for people but it doesn't go unnoticed.
i am grateful as fuck and i hope you know that. i'm fairly sure you do.

on the way to discovering what we love, we will find everything that we hate, everything that blocks our path to what we desire.

I'm feeling alot better in myself recently. I've pulled my head out my arse and got over you. i have relatively little cares anymore and it's good to feel free again.
I've realised there are decent people about, and sooner or later i'll be with someone who makes me happy.
I've started speaking with someone from back home direction; it's a welcome change to have someone to randomly chat to through the day n have a bit banter with. =)
Keeps me smiling through boring uni days and times when i can't sleep. haha
all good. generally i just feel like stuff is picking up, i'm ready for summer; n hoping to go see some decent bands.
I miss home as well, i wanna try visit for a week or so near my birthday but just keep it quiet n stuff.
i appreciate i'm writing like a 'tard (cuz i'm high as fuck) but i don't care. again this is more for me as i didn't like leaving things on a sour note last time.
I feel that it was a bit out of perspective cuz i've spent so little time recently sad in comparison to the last couple of months.
fuck it. here's to stuff picking up.
i'm out.
Peaaace. x

Happiness by the Kilowat

we sent 2979 texts to each other. you kept asking me how many all the time, you seemed pretty fascinated by it. so cute.

So i finally got round to listening to the song; you said it was about us.
It was previously about you and someone else, but you wanted to replace that.
i can only hope it worked, it's such a beautiful song; just never made time to sit n listen to it until today.



i keep wanting to text you, or ring you. anything.
i know it's stupid though, it kills me when i do.

i want to tell you every time you text me, for some reason my stupid phone shows me one of the random conversations we had over nearly 3000 texts.

i want to tell you every time you text or call, my phone still shows me that picture of us kissing. It feels like a lifetime ago, but i don't ever wanna lose that memory.

this still breaks my heart. i dunno why i do this to myself.

2011

So times have been a bit strange, not easy. i haven't been writing nearly as much.
however i have been drawing loads. so i'm not gonna try and catch up and write, i'm just gonna give you an overview of what i've drawn over the last few months; and anyone who sees it is welcome to make up their own mind as to what it's all about.
I'll keep updating!