Reality is subjective.

Ok so today has gone out of the window; but i'm in a relatively good mood.
Me and Hywel talked at length last night about dreams, and i'm sure it had effect because last night was one of the best, most lucid dreams i've ever had. I'm not going to go into great detail, i wrote it all down in my journal; but i was the son of a mafia boss and it was fucking sick. i had a suit and a gun and a beautiful trophy wife and lots of money.

"They say that dreams are real only as long as they last.
Can't you say the same thing about life?
A lot of us out there are mapping that mind/body relationship of dreams.
We're called the oneironauts. We're explorers of the dream world."

But yeah today, woke up in a good mood after surreal amazing dreamtime. sunny day outside and a nice easy day; get some questionnaires done for my legal research project, and meet my lecturer to sort out a few problems.
So i wander up to uni, forgot my headphones but no big deal, lovely day n all you know.

"Really, it's just about the two opposing states of consciousness...which don't really oppose at all.
See, in the waking world, the neuro-system inhibits the activation of the vividness of memories.
This makes evolutionary sense.
It'd be maladapted for the perceptual image of a predator to be mistaken for the memory of one and vice-versa.
If the memory of a predator conjured up a perceptual image, we'd be running off to the bathroom every time we had a scary thought."

ok so as i was saying i wandered up to college and i was running a bit late so i ended up a few minutes late and just missed my lecturer. balls.
left her a note and hopefully see her tomorrow.
i went up to the library to print out more questionnaires, put some more printer credits on, and the fucking intanet is down!!!

"So you have these serotonic neurons that inhibit hallucinations...
that they themselves are inhibited during REM sleep.
This allows dreams to appear real while preventing competition from other perceptual processes.
This is why dreams are mistaken for reality.
To the functional system of neural activity that creates our world,
there is no difference between dreaming a perception and an action and actually the waking perception and action."


I managed to meet Ollie over college who'd handed a few of my questionnaires out which was bonus.
met some interesting people too, and had a nice little smoke.
So i wander off for my lesson, which i think starts at 1pm and finishes at 3pm. turns out i was wrong. 11-1. balls again. got some funny looks walking into a 2 hour lecture 5 minutes before the end.
This is what happens when you don't sleep too often.
apart from getting nowhere with work, today has been fun. entirely counter productive but enjoyable.

"I had a friend once who told me...
that the worst mistake that you could make...
is to think that you are alive...
when really you’re asleep in life's waiting room.
The trick is to combine your waking rational abilities...
with the infinite possibilities of your dreams.
'Cause if you can do that, you can do anything."

i came to the conclusion that the recent elections are to politics what the grand national is to horse racing. See no-one gives a fuck about horse racing until the grand national rolls around, then every man and his dog shows an interest. Its the same with parliamentary elections, no one gives a fuck about politics until election time then every one is convinced they know politics and feel compulsed to discuss it. It's fucking horrid.
Opinions are like arseholes in this day and age; everyone has one, and they think that theirs doesn't stink.
my course is pretty heavily tied to politics, so im sick of it and i believe talking about personal politics is rude and impolite just as general conversation.
each to their own i guess.

"Did you ever have a job that you hated and worked real hard at?
A long, hard day of work. Finally you get to go home, get in bed, close your eyes...
and immediately you wake up and realize that the whole day at work had been a dream.
It's bad enough that you sell your waking life for-- for minimum wage,
but now they get your dreams for free"

So back to dreams, i think it's important to define when you are awake, and when you are asleep.
People spend all day in a zombie like state, wandering round half asleep.
and all the time they're asleep convinced they're awake, totally unaware that they're dreaming.
the key is in identification.

...now read this back, but just the quotes. x